hello tomorrow

there's a word that is being thrown around in the blogging world ... courage. discover your inner self. don't be afraid to fail. live your dreams. dance like no one is watching. it is a lovely word. a beautiful thought. a worthy goal.

but in truth sometimes the littlest thing can break my heart. snap me like a twig. throw me into a state of turmoil. and that small thing happened last evening. I was on a lovely high. enjoying a glorious day. meeting a new friend. and bam! squashed like a bug on a rug.

I talk about fear or love. and baby I believe it. but I am not so strong all the time. my emotions run high. my sensitivity level higher. and hurt feelings reign. and I tell myself to snap out of it. don't mind the gap. but deep down it hurts. and I feel insignificant.

awhile back kelly rae roberts wrote 'when we walk around in the world pretending to be confident and creative and strong, then a funny thing happens. we become confident and creative and strong.' true. you are what you eat. this morning I am disheartened, feeling the hangover of being made puny. dismissed. unimportant. but I hear the birds chirping outside my window. and it whispers to me. promising to be a sunny day. outside and in.

'courage doesn't always roar. sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow.'