goodbyes

I am alone for a few days. well. alone except for the painters. and the guys who are refinishing the stair treads (that I was going to do but ran out of energy. ambition. and oh yeah, that precious thing, time). but alone for all that matters. the kiddos are gone. sigh. the hubs left this morning. sigh. and I am a big. grump.

I am in that state where the feeling of aloneness is overwhelming. missing my children. I love the visits. but they are so very far away. and when they visit. and leave. it just amplifies the distance. and the warm memory of their nearness. the sadness will pass. at least the monumental nature of it all.

I have a few projects I want to do. but right now I just want to continue on with this very boisterous pity party. in full swing.

'how lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.'