followings

there is a blog that I follow. the art of being human. my no negativity girl. each. every. time she posts. I feel connected. stronger. she makes me. think. I know that sounds silly. but. some things. just are.

recently. she wrote.

Silence has filled my life with a glorious grace. It is a comfort, a strength I didn’t know I had. I’ve stopped needing to be right. I’ve stopped defending and explaining who I am and what I think because I’m curious about what is in the silence. I’m curious about who I could be if I got out of the way. Who am I stripped bare of my identity and labels I wear with equal degrees of shame and pride? Who are you?

I'm getting there.

'that was the day she made herself the promise to live more from intention and less from habit.'

words

adoxography: beautiful writing with a subject of little or no importance.

nepenthe: something that can make you forget grief or suffering.

eunola: beautiful thinking; a well mind.

psithurism: the sound of wind blowing through trees.

alate: having winds; lifted up in flight.

commuovere: to sirs, to touch, to move to tears.

orphic: mysterious and entrancing; beyond ordinary understanding.

aeipathy: an enduring and consuming passion.

solivagnant: wandering alone.

dormiveglia: the space that stretches between sleeping and waking.

pluviophile: a love of rain.

acatalepsy: the impossibility of comprehending the universe.

matutine: just before dawn.

syctophilia: the love of darkness, or nighttime.

eleutheromania: an intense and irrestible desire to be free.

scripturient: having a consuming passion to write.

logolepsy: an obsession with words.

brood: to think alone.

courtesy of avalonnightwick on tumblr

'one day I will find the right words and they will be beautiful.'

last week

we escaped. with friends. it was lovely. just a quick trip to Johnson City-ish, Texas. a couple of tours. a lot of food. beverage. laughter. and some plain. old. relaxing.

highly recommended. what's next?

'you know all those things you've always wanted to do? you should just do them.'

work in progress

taking on.

the non-profit I volunteer for had its strategic planning meeting this week. I said yes to some new things. outside my comfort zone. my last year on the Board makes me bold. perhaps.

taking in.

listening to Brené Brown.

walking.

exercise is not a new thing for me. just sorely. quite literally. neglected. I love to walk. accompanied only by my iPod and my thoughts.

eating.

we just signed up for a farm-to-home program. healthy meals. new menus. happy kitchen.

reading.

again I struggle for a good book. a friend suggested going back to the basics. so after work yesterday I did a bit of a search for 'must reads.' and chose CS Lewis', The Chronicles of Narnia.

'wholeheartedness. there are many tenets of wholeheartedness, but at its very core is vulnerability and worthiness; facing uncertainty, exposure, and emotional risks, and knowing that I am enough.'

June 1

after some 4 weeks of steady rail, there's a change the weather. after some 4 months of really not feeling myself, I think its time to change. me. easily said. done. will tell.

with the sunshine I was in the garden over the weekend. such good therapy. such sore muscles.

1. exercise

with the sunshine I met a friend at a tag sale on Friday. a nice morning of poking around amid stuff. and we're doing it again this Sunday. and looking forward to a little get-away with the hubs & friends.

2. roam

with the sunshine my thoughts continue to wander. some soul searching. much prayer. I'm trying to clear my head. focus on the positive. dismiss the negative. its bitter as I realize some things will not change. but still I wait. hope. and in the meantime. I am blessed. loved. on the road to happy.

3. choose. it's fear or love, baby. I choose love.

'all that wander are not lost.'