with me

I wish I could understand. intolerance. heartlessness. hatred.

the events of this past week. leave me. speechless.

I found it ironic that Friday was. kindness day. were we? was I?

I can be as cynical as the average next person. grumpy. annoying. meanspirited. that is human nature. but I am trying. praying. not only to keep those ugly thoughs to myself. but not dwell on them at all. because where does it get us. you know me. and quotes. 'weak people revenge. strong people forgive. intelligent people ignore.' I am trying. harder and harder each day. to be strong.

it's really strange. how much a smile or a glance or a nice word or a simple hello. returned. can do to make your day joyful. or. ignored. so sad you can hardly bear it.

I think. we all think. oh, there is nothing I can do about it. (Paris). but if not now. if not me. when? who?

'later that night
i held an atlas in my lap
ran my fingers across the whole
world
and whispered
where does it hurt?
it answered
everywhere
everywhere
everywhere'

no title

today was one of those days. when you think. this is great. and the more. you think. the sadder. you get.

I thought that last year. was. a not so great. year. I was glad. when. my birthday came. & went. to start. another year.

clear. fresh. new.

but. it's not. been. great.

and I wish. I knew when it would.

'what cannot be said will be wept.'