Tick tock

Been a very busy. busy. busy. few weeks. Having fun. Stressing out. Counting down.

Went to the LEAF (Llano Earth Art Festival). With friends. Such fun.

Tending to things that are roaring. Such nonsense.

Checking off the days til the end. Of duties. Tick tock.

'Be always drunken. Nothing else matters: that is the only question.
Drunken with what? With wine, with poetry, or with virtue, as you will. But be drunken.
And if sometimes, on the stairs of a palace, or on the green side of a ditch, or in the dreary solitude of your own room, you should awaken and the drunkenness be half or wholly slipped away from you, ask of the wind, or of the wave, or of the star, or of the bird, or of the clock, of whatever flies, or sighs, or rocks, or sings, or speaks, ask what hour it is; and the wind, wave, star, bird, clock, will answer you: "It is the hour to be drunken! Be drunken, if you would not be martyred slaves of Time; be drunken continually! With wine, with poetry, or with virtue, as you will."'

35

today. my baby turns 35.

precious. brilliant. strong willed. determined. devoted. stubborn. stalwart. delightful. surprising. witty. beautiful. beautiful. beautiful.

happy birthday sweetie. you are loved. more than you could ever know.

'as soon as I saw you, I knew an adventure was going to happen.'

ho hum

the days speed by. but things. seem to stay the same. routine.

which is. good. bad. tedious. secure. but. oddly boring.

I am so. ready. for a change.

not a new project. or a new cause. I think. I am ready. for nothing. that glorious state. no deadlines. no pressure. no waking up in the middle of the night with an overwhelming to-do list.

just. blissful. mundane. carefree. wherever the wind blows. open ended. not nothingness. somethingness.

'embrace uncertainty. some of the most beautiful chapters in our lives won't have a title until much later.'

on the ottoman

a friend introduced me to Dean Koontz. a curious author. with. curious characters. likeable. but. the plotlines can be a bit eerie. disturbing. I read him. in small. doses.

when my email pinged this week. with his latest. I thought. I'd try. again.

interesting. so far. a little bit jumpy. so far. as usual. so far. he holds my attention.

but. as I have been. in the mood. desperate. to get lost in a book.

welcome. distraction.

'all dark is now no more. the forest is drawing a light.'

today

trying to get motivated to do. what needs. to be. done.

the past four days. have been. exhilerating. extraordinary. exhausting. the last only since now the house is quiet.

we had guests. one of four. tenors. at the request of a friend. who the hubs met on the hiking trail. purely by chance. and I am ever so glad. grateful. so get to know. these gentle men better.

they gave a concert. which left. everyone. in awe. in an euphoric state. and happy.

odd. how strangers. come & go. and touch our lives.

it was. lovely to see. lovely to hear. lovely to be part of.

'I'm not quite sure what it means, but the words are so beautiful.'

2 AM

there seems. to be. much happening. in my life. in my head.

things to do. places to go. people to see.

and it exhausts me. until. 2 AM.

what is it about that hour. that makes me stir. wide-awake.

'the breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you. do not go back to sleep.'

happy new year

2016. where did you come from?

more importantly. where are you going?

I know. you'll fly. by. but.

I'm really looking forward. to you. adventures. experiences. people. possibilities.

we had a merry holiday. weird. but happy.

we had a new year fete. weird. but happy.

I think. that will be. the mantra. of 2016. and I'm okay. with that.

'and so. she decided to start living the life she'd imagined.'

ps and I just have to share. one of my very. favorite. photos. from our LA trip. these guys.