today

much anticipated arrival. GoT in 10 hours. crazy obsessed. but true.

much anticipated departure. LA in 9 days. Fresno in 17. SF in 19.

much anticipated outlook. starting now.

'I'm on the pursuit of happiness.'

April showers

my plan. is to get back in the garden today.

but it will be. delayed. as it is thundering now. and I have a large puppy on my lap. and a few email to. get out.

putting the. final. finishing. touches. on the event.

getting the last. of my duties. wrapped up.

making plans. to go to LA. in May.

dreaming. of the day. when my lists. are mine. and his. and ours.

'if I sit in my own place of patience, what I need flows to me. from this I understand that what I want also wants me, is looking for me and attracting me.'

simply amazing

me. oh. my. what a weekend.

we had our event. some things to learn. but. overall. great fun.

now. in that exhausted state. but. happy.

'some people are so much sunshine to the square inch.'

Tick tock

Been a very busy. busy. busy. few weeks. Having fun. Stressing out. Counting down.

Went to the LEAF (Llano Earth Art Festival). With friends. Such fun.

Tending to things that are roaring. Such nonsense.

Checking off the days til the end. Of duties. Tick tock.

'Be always drunken. Nothing else matters: that is the only question.
Drunken with what? With wine, with poetry, or with virtue, as you will. But be drunken.
And if sometimes, on the stairs of a palace, or on the green side of a ditch, or in the dreary solitude of your own room, you should awaken and the drunkenness be half or wholly slipped away from you, ask of the wind, or of the wave, or of the star, or of the bird, or of the clock, of whatever flies, or sighs, or rocks, or sings, or speaks, ask what hour it is; and the wind, wave, star, bird, clock, will answer you: "It is the hour to be drunken! Be drunken, if you would not be martyred slaves of Time; be drunken continually! With wine, with poetry, or with virtue, as you will."'

35

today. my baby turns 35.

precious. brilliant. strong willed. determined. devoted. stubborn. stalwart. delightful. surprising. witty. beautiful. beautiful. beautiful.

happy birthday sweetie. you are loved. more than you could ever know.

'as soon as I saw you, I knew an adventure was going to happen.'

ho hum

the days speed by. but things. seem to stay the same. routine.

which is. good. bad. tedious. secure. but. oddly boring.

I am so. ready. for a change.

not a new project. or a new cause. I think. I am ready. for nothing. that glorious state. no deadlines. no pressure. no waking up in the middle of the night with an overwhelming to-do list.

just. blissful. mundane. carefree. wherever the wind blows. open ended. not nothingness. somethingness.

'embrace uncertainty. some of the most beautiful chapters in our lives won't have a title until much later.'

on the ottoman

a friend introduced me to Dean Koontz. a curious author. with. curious characters. likeable. but. the plotlines can be a bit eerie. disturbing. I read him. in small. doses.

when my email pinged this week. with his latest. I thought. I'd try. again.

interesting. so far. a little bit jumpy. so far. as usual. so far. he holds my attention.

but. as I have been. in the mood. desperate. to get lost in a book.

welcome. distraction.

'all dark is now no more. the forest is drawing a light.'