saying goodbye

today. I'm realizing that saying goodbye is. a very. long. process. one, I think. I may never be successful in doing. and. I'm okay with that.

yesterday. I listened. the difference between grief and mourning. jumbled words. intertwined emotions. and I think. 'how lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.'

saying goodbye. I know the reality. I'm just. not. ready. to accept.

E

our dear friend, E, passed away on Sunday.

it seems. impossible. that she is gone.

gone. never forgotten. she touched. so many lives. I smile at the thought of her through tearful eyes and a heavy heart.

'she lived and laughed and loved and left. and the world will never be the same.'

end of May

done. well. almost. a few loose ends to. tie up.

an odd feeling. bittersweet. good. not over. just another viewpoint.

so. here's the question. what now?

I'll let you know.

meanwhile.

I like reading Gretchen Rubin. she wrote 'The Happiness Project'. a lovely. collection. of life.

today.

I discovered she has a weekly iTunes podcast. which I just. subscribed to. (so now I. just. need to learn how to listen. old dog. new tricks.) what caught my eye? the title, 'Accept Myself, and Expect More from Myself'. I like the thought of. that.

also today.

the hubs snapped. a pic. of the garden. all things. bright and beautiful.

'I can do all things in Him who strengthens me.'

home again

Evangeline has put on some miles. but. now. is happily. back home.

she. crossed the dessert. entertained the boys. met a friend. watched whales. navigated bridges. bays. hills. out ran storms. listened to stories. delighted in the adventure.

she. rested. while we. proudly. watched our daughter graduate from nursing school. talked. played. savored. hugged. loved.

'I just want to have a completely adventurous, passionate, weird life.'

today

much anticipated arrival. GoT in 10 hours. crazy obsessed. but true.

much anticipated departure. LA in 9 days. Fresno in 17. SF in 19.

much anticipated outlook. starting now.

'I'm on the pursuit of happiness.'

April showers

my plan. is to get back in the garden today.

but it will be. delayed. as it is thundering now. and I have a large puppy on my lap. and a few email to. get out.

putting the. final. finishing. touches. on the event.

getting the last. of my duties. wrapped up.

making plans. to go to LA. in May.

dreaming. of the day. when my lists. are mine. and his. and ours.

'if I sit in my own place of patience, what I need flows to me. from this I understand that what I want also wants me, is looking for me and attracting me.'

simply amazing

me. oh. my. what a weekend.

we had our event. some things to learn. but. overall. great fun.

now. in that exhausted state. but. happy.

'some people are so much sunshine to the square inch.'