with me

I wish I could understand. intolerance. heartlessness. hatred.

the events of this past week. leave me. speechless.

I found it ironic that Friday was. kindness day. were we? was I?

I can be as cynical as the average next person. grumpy. annoying. meanspirited. that is human nature. but I am trying. praying. not only to keep those ugly thoughs to myself. but not dwell on them at all. because where does it get us. you know me. and quotes. 'weak people revenge. strong people forgive. intelligent people ignore.' I am trying. harder and harder each day. to be strong.

it's really strange. how much a smile or a glance or a nice word or a simple hello. returned. can do to make your day joyful. or. ignored. so sad you can hardly bear it.

I think. we all think. oh, there is nothing I can do about it. (Paris). but if not now. if not me. when? who?

'later that night
i held an atlas in my lap
ran my fingers across the whole
world
and whispered
where does it hurt?
it answered
everywhere
everywhere
everywhere'

no title

today was one of those days. when you think. this is great. and the more. you think. the sadder. you get.

I thought that last year. was. a not so great. year. I was glad. when. my birthday came. & went. to start. another year.

clear. fresh. new.

but. it's not. been. great.

and I wish. I knew when it would.

'what cannot be said will be wept.'

October

Octobers are full of birthdays for me. even if you don't. count. mine.

it is a joyful month.

and on. this. day. I just want to say it one. more. time.

happy birthday. to you.

'you crossed my mind today. and, as usual, I smiled.'

happy birthday

well. the house is quiet. and joy full.

after months of planning. a whirlwind. weekend.

and. a. happy 60th birthday celebration for the hubs. surprise!

his sister & family. his brother & family. fraternity brother. lots of friends. a very. very. good time was had by all.

missing were the kiddos & grandbabies. one caught in the midst of studies & semesters. one on assignment in Taiwan. sigh. but soon.

'life moves pretty fast. if you don't stop to look around once in a while you could miss it..'

fall

this morning. heading out to the garden. to pull weeds. and plant a few plants I found on the $1 table at Lowes. I love the $1 table.

poor babies. I'll give you a home.

'live long and prosper.'

two today

finding joy in planning for a big event in October. the hubs 60th. shhh. it's a surprise.

still. still. struggling with me. oh. the. things. in. my. head.

finding comfort. in words. thanks. ever so much. for the advice.

double quote ending today. bonus. needed.

'whatever the present moment contains. embrace it as if you had chosen it.'

'sometimes you have to smile and act like everything is okay, hold back the tears and walk away.'

forget-me-not

'but I believe good things happen every day. I believe good things happen even when bad things happen. and I believe on a happy day like today, we can still feel a little sad. and that's life, isn't it?'