hello July

a lot is happening in my life. good. crazy. stressful. scarey. happy. blessed. I am embarking on a bit of new career (details coming soon). I am hesitant and sad to leave work and people and things behind until I realize that I am simply putting that work and people and things into a different context. I am excited about what is about to be.

I always thought that as I got older my life would be calmer. but it just seems to go through one wonderfully hectic stage to another. I can try to find peace in it all. even if that peace is punctuated with agnst. worry. giddiness. anticipation. I think it is the plain ol' joy in just being busy. experiencing new things. taking solice in the present. embracing the madness. thanking Him for the love that surrounds me. staying close. asking for patience (please). accepting the challenge. making plans. taking it one day at a time. one step at a time. looking back. not regretting. choosing love not fear.

'I have finally realized that balance is futile. life is just too lopsided to be balanceable.'